2003 May 22nd

That was a very special birthday for me.

1 month before May 22, 2003. I received a birthday card from Dad. It was a very nice and "in" birthday card. Not those "flower" or with lots of "words"...

A very nice birthday with a big head girl on the cover, I was surprised when I opened it. Dad placed a CAN$1000 cheque inside. It was for me to go on the USA trip with the business I was in. I was so nice of him and he knew that I really wanted to go...

I did went with my partners, my friends, but I didn't have a good time. I wasn't really in that business. I had so many doubts about that, but I went there to check it out myself.

That CAN$1000 cheque meant a lot to me. Not only an open eye experience, but it almost took my Dad's life. After my birthday, it seemed so normal, but the peaceful period didn't last long until May 30th evening.

I still remember clear that King, Ka ho, Mom and I were eating dinner. Mom was asking why Dad didn't call home (Dad called 4 times a day, every 4 hours call once), and the phone rang. Ka Ho picked up the phone, and he changed his face suddenly into serious mode. I was joking with King and Boy jai at a time that may be someone's parents called and yelled at him, Mom picked up the phone, and I only heard mom kept asking "what happened?" and she started to cry. I knew that was Auntie 8 called and I got the phone from Mom. Mom was shiffering herself off the chair, brothers went to take care of mom.

I said Hello to a person I didn't like to talk to. She was crying, and begging me not to push his brother anymore. I was so lost, so I was yelling at her to calm down. She stopped sobbing and said that Dad was in ICU and didn't know what happened, but she knew Dad was under a great pressure financially and end up, he puked blood (1/3 of the blood in his body) the night he on-called in the hopsital....

I still remembered every single moment since then, how I ended the phone, how to comfort Mom, how to discuss with brothers the situation, first time how to pray altogether, how to get money for mom and I fly back to Hong Kong, etc. Seriously, I didn't want to be this organized, but I was preparing the worse.

That was SARS period, and AC & CX cut a lot of flights to Hong kong, We had to wait until June 2nd to fly back. That was May 31st. I was looking for the tickets and I was at the 11th Scout Ceremony (being a guest). Phone rang, "invalid call", I knew it was from Hong Kong. I picked up the phone... I hardly heard Dad's voice. I was released, but he was crying. He was afraid that he would not see me anymore, everytime when he sobbed, he hurt... My heart was broken. My heart left my body ... drainned down the floor... my soul left me and already flied back to Hong Kong...

I knew how much Dad loved me and I hope I would be able to show him, but... I was that kind didn't know how to show my love to my Dad...

Dad, that is a place I want to take you to enjoy. Fresh Air, Nice sightseeing... please enjoy your life.

New Target

After receiving a number of "RED BOMBS", I had some friends asked me to same question:

"Percy, why not getting a (new) target for yourself??"

Tell you the truth, before X'mas of 2006, I was very aggressive to look for one. Someone I can be with, not even talk about married....

All of a sudden, I lost the motion to look for. I was being passive then...

Am I really that bad? Well... just FAT and UGLY... heheheeh!! what else???

I don't look sporty, but I know how to play a lot of sports...
I do wear dress....
I have long hair...
I have easy going atitude....

The only thing I am different from gals is... I don't like Flower. I don't like the pollen (I am allergy to them) and you know what?? I don't like guys or anyone giving me "DEADbody" of the plants!!!! Also... may be... too easy going then... hahahaaa!! may be ... too "TOM BOY" .... too "MAN" even more "man" than the guys I know ... hahahaa!!

Friends... tell me somethings I am good.... and bad... let me change it ....

I am enjoying my Single life... but I don't want to be alone anymore....

PS: For those who cares about my love life, Thank you. Just introduce some good guys to me. hahaha!! forget to tell you all... (if people used to hang around with me would know) 3 basic requirements for my man:

1. Tall
2. Thick eyebrows
3. roots of beard

haahahaa! can you find someone like that? Of coz, it is only physical apperance... nothing much.. I am just kidding.

He must be a Christian, that is all I am asking for.

Thought...

Throat feels like BURNING, and CUTTING off... the pain is sharp but there is no blood.

Once again, I asked myself this is strange that I have fever so many times within a short time period. Am I too weak physically? or mentally?

Bcoz of Stress from work and the stress from myself, make myself weaker and weaker. Even my period is not in the right time. Haahahaaa!! What should I do? I guess... need to tell myself to rest more is not enough... I guess I should adapt into what I do, right?

Good to have time to be sick! That means my body still responding my emotion and my brain. I sometimes do think whether I can change myself to the "HONG KONG" style. Life is like that, can't do much to keep the REAL me, but changing myself to ADAPT into the environment I am in.

I am watching the Panda program. I really enjoy being a cleaner for the animals. I guess... if I have the time, if they can understand me... I will not mind to be with them at all the time. Spend time to the animals is more enjoyable than spending time to humen. I guess I am gifted to be with animals. =)

Friends, are you agreed?

This is how I feel

Today, It is so cold. I have my jacket on most of my time. I needed to drink more warm water in order to keep my internal organs function!!!

It doesn't matter, bcoz I still work my butt off in order to get things done....

When you are having 8 companies working 2 projects per company. I guess you will feel the same as me. Very tired and frustrated. Plus later on you find out someone think you don't do your jobs.


End up, I am really PISSED off! I guess it is just like that... no one really does care, or thinking ot use "positive" way to think ... but that is ok... I don't really give a shit about it....


So, what did I do? I chose to leave the office....







I am sure I already finished what I must done today. I will leave the rest for tomorrow. This is my work attitude. I only have 1/2 paid of what I should. I already worked so hard for my work... ok lar... Don't worry... things get better later on .... Manager is coming next week... haahahaa!

Good Luck! Percy!!!

Mar 6 2007 BIG DINNER in Cha San for 1000s people!

This is my little Kau Fu. He is one of the best Artist I think he is. He has the temper, but at the same time, he really does has his talent!!!!! Just by looking at his drawing... so quick... so real... so entertain!!!

This is one of the HONG QI! Yeah... the Chinese Governor's type! Actually, my Uncle hast 5. He loves them so much. Hahaaa!! It is old, no wonder I can't open the door (was joking. of coz it was opened and drivable!!)
I was standing in front of another one. I like this better... a bit good condition.=)
She is SUE, the marketing manager in the sister company. She is really "Lucy Liu's type". hehehe! Yeah... I don't really want to smile when I take this picture with her, bcoz she keeps talking and talking... with the HK accent .... *sigh*....
We had 20 bottles of red wine for my table. It was crazy! What could I say? You couldn't see them is normal, bcoz I couldn't see them as well. Look at the worker who was behind me... he must be thinking, "those HK people are so CRAZY!!!!"
One good picture that we took before we all got drunk (actually some of them already really drunk by looking at their faces, you knew who I was talking about)

It was a good Chinese Dinner over all. Actually we went to K in the hotel and it was so fun. After Red Wine, we have BEER!!! It was crazy.....

do you know how I feel now?? IT was Tuesday... and now is Friday... and I am....

Smile

Just came back home from China. It was very nice to join the CHINESE DINNER with factory staffs. It was one of the nice events I ever go which organized by non-organized people. It was 1200s people join the dinner. Will show the photos later on.

When I need to face/deal with people I don't used to hang around. I do either trying my best to get along with them or running away from them. I do really know who I like to hang around with, on the other hand, I don't have life time enemy. When I need to deal with such people, I will just "surrend" to them.

Why do I need to fed up about their personalities? I am a weird person, but doesn't mean I isolate myself to others. However, I do find a way to open them in order for me to understand such kind people for future use (or for future avoiding).

In the past week, I have been trying my best to know some people I think they can be my friends. End up, rude answers or even ignorance. I don't like the way they treat me, but I do thank them for letting me know they don't care about me. If they do, they will care how I feel/ how I react... Oh well... Too bad, it just shows that I am a happy person compare with them. Poor them.

Happiness is easy to have unless you appreciate what you have. I always like to have such facial expression all the time. I hope things get better and I do keep it on my face at all time.

If you ask me whether I am happy or not. I can tell you. I am happy to enjoy my life, I am happy to have the stress at work, and I am happy of what I have. I don't smile doesn't mean I am not happy. Come on, I am learning how to love myself.

But how...?