Load of staw

HR called me this morning and it seemed like I got my manager trouble. It is my health condition. I don't want anyone get any trouble bcoz of that.

A friend critisizes me as I am a bitch.

I thought after all these things, I planned to go to Yuk Yuk for FUN, then I found out. SOMEONE ruinned my dinner gathering and need to reschedule at the last minute.

I feel like I am the Truck with Staw.... TIGHT and hardly breath. Shaking...

So struggle...

Don't critisize me!

It is very sad to hear that something happened between my friend and I.
It is very disappointed to know how he sees me.

I have a mouth but can't talk...
I have hands, but can't touch...
I have ears, but can't listen...

This is me. I didn't change a bit.

Please don't critisize me as you stop knowing me.

Before you talk behind me, please listen carefully. DON'T CRITISIZE me! I am as fragile as you are. I am as stubborn as you are. Stop talk behind me. If you have any problem with me, talk to me. Don't hide it. don't avoid it. It is ruinning our friendship.

I am very direct and I don't claim myself as bossy as you think. I guess that is it? I don't want to give u up but why are you giving up our friendship? So obvious that I lost a good friend, a so called "Best friend".

Where is my Journey?

I was full load of Staw, tight but fragile; rough....

I want to stay home at all time, but it seems like not easy to do it anymore...

I would like to have a tea time with friends. Just a little chat, or... some quiet times to be together. That is good enough.

After all these feelings, I hope God actually show me my way, show me the road he planned for me. It maybe a long lonely journey, but I don't mind... I know God will send me angels to be my companies. I know God will protect me from the enemies. I know God will help me take off the LOADS from my shoulders.
Long lonely journey. It is scary, but I know "HE" is walking with me. HE will protect me and HE will listen to all my prayers.

Please Don't just treat me as friend.

why don't you treat me as a normal girl? I am not a guy... even I don't have the girlish style outlook.

why don't you treat me as a potential girlfriend when I am listening your life.

that is ok. I will just be myself.

Silent beside you, and listen to your stories.
Laugh with you, and make sure you are happy.
Worry with you, and let you worry-free.

This is me, believe it or not. See how stupid I am?

Dream leads my Hope to my sunshine!

When I have a dream, I will have HOPE every morning.
Hope to have longer day to dream my dream.
Hope to have better day to think of my dream.
Hope to have happier day to share my dream...

Hope God won't take my dream away...

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...

I miss you...

I am really bored. want to be with friends... but I guess not many things to do, so I can't call them out. On the other hand, I don't want to waste money.

no matter what... you just don't know how much I miss you.

Finally, I got myself into exercise again. I love it. I just can't live without it.

Due to the car accident, I can't go to Gym, so I decided to go to "swimming pool".

I used to do a lot of stupid things in the pool:
I screamed when I was swimming lanes.
I winked when nobody even look at me.
I ignored others when I was swimming fast and furious... heheehee!

I am so out of shape as I only swim an hour everyday, it didn't really help me that much...

*sigh*....

But still, I love swimming. No matter what.... I love pool, the smell and the setting...

I need to go back to my old days.... Let's swim wih me

small group is a blast.

I really enjoy the time with my friends. No need to do a lot of things but hang around with them is a summer blast!

Sometimes I tried to meet more friends, but I guess... I like the small group. getting very town gal, not city gal anymore... weird.

Happy Birthday, my bro, KING!

Aug 7 2008 is my dear brother King's birthday. I wish him a very Happy Birthday!
I really want to get you a cake, but how can I send you a birthday cake when we are in different countries? Then I started to search around and finally, I found you the typical birthday cake, but...It seems like too typical, then I keep searching and seraching... and I find this...

*sigh* looks like a bit creamy, but it is still very normal... I know you will like it, but I am not too sure if I want to get this for you.... then ... go back to the search mode and ....

This is very cutey cake. I wonder if you can eat the little guys.... hum.. since it is not eatable, then I go back to search....
This is a very nice one. At least I will love to take the first bite, but THIS IS MY BROTHER's BDAY, not me. I shouldn't think of myself but Ka Kin...

This is something I always want to make. Something like my "curry chicken Bday cake"... but this is even more advanced. it includes pens and the childhood toys. King, what do you think?

But then I think we both are getting older, we should find something delicious plus usable. This cake should be the best. Eye testing... what to you think?

Again, you are getting older.. I should have a BIG nice cake, but how to count all the candles? FINE, I just give you ONE BIG candle so you can BLOW it with less energy...
After all the searching, I still think StarWar suits you the BEST.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KING! I PRAY TO YOU AT ALL TIME!