Sept 4 2009, What another day...

I was so tired this morning, got up and my brain kept thinking thinking and thinking. What did I think? seriously, didnt remember. This is some kind of "Senior moment" for me.

Arrived the office, I went to see Kau Mo. She asked me how I am lately... The bitter inside me just hard to explain it out.

I keep telling myself NOT to show any NOT happy sign, so I pretended I was so normal at work. Alice asked Vincent and I to the room. I thought another "being yelled", end up she wanted to have devotion with us. I didn't want to, but I guessed we had to. She is the boss.

I was trying to do all the stuffs. Today is the businesss Sponsorships deadline, I posted up what I had on Michael's FTP site, and email Suk Yin and Vincent. Packed the suitecase (boot suitcase) for Benny... Then .. .Noon time.

Have to run... in order to have something in the stomach before meeting MCCC at 2pm. MUST leave at noon. I went to Biu Yee Ma, She explained to me about the house of ours may not good to our lives. We didn't do any good since we moved in.

I had been thinking about this issue.... awhile ago. I didn't know end up ... it actually someone brought it up.

I didn't mean to be rude, but I really want to do thing one at a time.

Sell the condo, renovate Markham, then get a new house and sell Markham. This is my plan. Hopefully it works.

Time to go... need to meet up the business agent. Everything will be fine except, I really don't like being micromanagemnt. I really hate it.

The "Positive" that I don't want to have...

I keep telling myself, POSITIVE, HAPPY, GOOD

Prediction (I would like to have a chance to prevent any unhappy issue happen ahead of time)
Objective (Good that I am not subjective, or the world becomes very BLACK and WHITE in me)
Subsitution (Should I start to find someone to sub me)
Intensionally (Sometimes people just do something they thought they are right...)
Talent (Do I have any? I can't see it anymore)
Impatience (When my boss around me, my pressure from this)
Violent (I always want to this to her)
Experience (It teaches me NOT to do anything above)

Think deepy, I believe Positive thinking is a MUST in me, or people around will suffer alot

DO you think so?

Confronted by minutes and minutes..

Today... I really had a bad bad bad headache....

Alice H. confronted me by marking all my late day with the Minutes I was late. However, I knew I was wrong by being late, Sorry ok? but how could she marked down ALL minutes I was late??? I am so upset about it...

How come I am always wrong? How come I never reach her standard?

If one day I get out where I am working now, I will send my BLOG WEB to Alice H. I hope she understand how much she hurts me.