I met him again...

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me another chance to meet him again. I was surprised. I was amazed when I met him again. I thought back to the first time I met him. He was mean, mouthy, bully, insensitive, but he was also nice originally. Thank God for planning me to know this guy. I was happy. He was my friend's friend. He liked my friend very much. I knew it from the first time I met him. That was why I didn't say until our friend get married. I could felt that he likes this girl still but he would not be able to get her anymore. She is getting married.

My dearest Lord, you made me spent 10 years to wait to observe him, you leaded me to see him again, you guided me to see another side of him. Thank you for telling me that he is a fellower, true Christian. Please show me what I should do. Please guide me to walk away from him if he is not the one you planned for me. I need your help, my Lord. I always got very confused who you planned for me, and who are not. Please protect me from hurting. Please show me what I need to do in order to walk the way you've planned. I don't want to do anything you don't like. Please guide me. I am scared to do stupid things you don't like. I am sure you will protect me from doing the bad things.

My Lord, I am happy. You gave me hope again. You gave me wish. Please tell me if he is the one. Please guide me if he is the one you want me to be with. I am praying in the name of Jesus Christ. ~Amen.