What should I do with him?

Today, I am not very awake.

I believed I felt to sleep early last night, but I woke up in the middle of the night. Ka Ho was not home. All the negative thoughts just snapped into my mind.

I kept BB him, I kept calling him. He didn't answer the phone. I intentively drove the car around to find him. I didn't know where my brother was.... Finally, Mr. Chan came home around 3:00am while he needed to wake up around 7:30am...

Dear God,

Please forgive my paranoid. I didn't know how to handle it. Somehow I have a great responsibility on Ka Ho as Parents are away from us. I don't know how to explain to him how worried I am, but please God, it seems like I want to take a break. Would you mind to take this stone away from my mind and let myself set free? The worries, the angers... my Lord, it really bothers me... I really don't know what to do, but talk to you, look at you, and please lead me on your way. As I always want to walk on my way, No God, please lead me to your way.

My Lord, I always want to put Ka Ho to you as you love him very much. He knows, but he doesn't want to admit. Please God, please help him. He is so lost. always find something to fill up his time. Please help him set his schedule, please lead him to a better life. I love you, My Lord. He is my youngest brother, I am not too sure how come he is walking away from you. Please help him and hold him in your arms.

Today, I want to say Sorry to do on what I did. I believe that I just enjoy my life so much. Please let me know if I am wrong. God, I know you love me as well. Please let me know how to handle my emotion, how to follow you? I always want to listen to Karen about following you. I always want to do so, but I can't really keep it up. Please tell me what to do. Please guide me what to do. My Lord, I shouldn't do something bad when I represent as your daughter. Please forgive me. I am doing my best to correct it. Please help me.

I love you, My Lord, and please give me wisdom on how to handle things that I don't know/ didn't know how yet. I will follow you, my Lord.

in Christ,

Percy