God has HIS plan in so details

I always think GOD has HIS plan on me... but I just feel so amazed that God actually is not only a planner, but a wonderful well prepared event organizer. I thank God for giving me so many different things happened in my life. Those things were happening one by one. They followed so smooth and so tight in schedule.

I realized how much I am not with my Lord lately. End up I went to get some helps from my mentor. Good that my mentor sat down with me. He made me to think what I needed to focus on and what I should do next. Thank you, my Lord.

He is not having warm place? May I provide him one?

I had a bad day at work today. Heehee, actually, doesn't matter, no matter how much I showed I worked hard, my senior couldn't see it, but only shouting at me by not doing enough. I started to think whether I should just quit the job or just hang in there. I didn't know what to do. Let God show me the way.

I wanted to talk to him, but I didn't want to show how much I wanted to talk to him. I confused myself really bad by holding my feeling away from him. I realized that he has so many choices, so he might not understand my feeling since he had so many girls around him. I really wanted to tell him how much I like him.... and how long I like him.... Oh well... why bother?... To be Con't...

I met him again...

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me another chance to meet him again. I was surprised. I was amazed when I met him again. I thought back to the first time I met him. He was mean, mouthy, bully, insensitive, but he was also nice originally. Thank God for planning me to know this guy. I was happy. He was my friend's friend. He liked my friend very much. I knew it from the first time I met him. That was why I didn't say until our friend get married. I could felt that he likes this girl still but he would not be able to get her anymore. She is getting married.

My dearest Lord, you made me spent 10 years to wait to observe him, you leaded me to see him again, you guided me to see another side of him. Thank you for telling me that he is a fellower, true Christian. Please show me what I should do. Please guide me to walk away from him if he is not the one you planned for me. I need your help, my Lord. I always got very confused who you planned for me, and who are not. Please protect me from hurting. Please show me what I need to do in order to walk the way you've planned. I don't want to do anything you don't like. Please guide me. I am scared to do stupid things you don't like. I am sure you will protect me from doing the bad things.

My Lord, I am happy. You gave me hope again. You gave me wish. Please tell me if he is the one. Please guide me if he is the one you want me to be with. I am praying in the name of Jesus Christ. ~Amen.