It is time...

IT is not the time to CONFRONT what it went wrong.

It is time to take care of the people who is still alive.
It is time to take care of the people who passed away and wanted to go home.
It is time to love the people around you when you still can.
It is time to alert ourselves how we should treasure of what we have.
It is time to bless of what we had, what we still have...

Final decision: taking a rest.

It is a big decision.

But I can't think of anything else.... but making sure my health is getting better.

I have been pushed, forced to do something out of my limit. I can't breathe.. but no one care... I am not happy... , it included into my income. I need to get out... but I need to think first.

Honestly, I love my work. I really do. I love my job. I love World Vision Canada. But ... it is time for me to think if I should stay there anymore. I can't stand it anymore.... I mean... I can't stand HER anymore... why do I care about her that much when I should care my health.

I know they will be so mad at me... and maybe I will have phone calls and stuffs. Oh well... they can handle it.. I will let them do it.

I am going to hand the Dec NL action plan to them.
I will send the businesss sponsor list to them.
I will pass the stuffs to Ginnie. (Poor ginnie)....

God, please forgive me to leave my team in the middle of the event. I need a rest... I really need a rest... I can't wait until the event finish. There will be abother event....

If SHE didn't trigger me, I guess I will stuck at the position ... wanna go...but can't. I have to prove that it is their loss to push me to the corner.

It is HER! it is ALL HER!!!!!

Thank for letting me to have him in my life.

I am not happy... I don't know why...

I sit down and look at myself.... just .... don't like myself at all...

My tears start dropping down... Don't know how to stop it and not even know what the reason is...

Good that HE provides me a man who doesn't mind me, who loves me very much, who teaches me how to love myself.

He stays with me on the phone until I fall to sleep. How can I find a better person in my life like him?

How can I change my mind in order to make sure I know how to love myself and love him more everyday?

Thank God for giving me Kenneth Man.

Thank God for letting me have him in my life.

Thank you, my heavenly father.