My Life on Aug 25 2007

(Thank you Maggie for having such cutie icon from the above website)

My Name: Perz Chan

Nice Name: ABC, Per Tau

Childhood Ambition: Want to be a great DJ

Fondest memory: Got into swimming team when I was in Hong Kong

Indulgence: Good feeling

Last Purchase: Breakfast with Ben Ben this morning

Favorite movie: Evan Almighty

Favorite concert: SH concert 2006

Inspiration: Making a difference in this world

My Life: is about finding my happiness

My Goal: being a 100% See Lai

Letter on the road.

I am not too sure about the road I am in. I believe God planned it. I need to keep asking for his guideline to walk on it. I am afraid to walk incorrectly like last time I did. I don't want to waste my time to circle around, better to listen his words carefully

My road seems like very bright, still a long way ahead of me, and I am not alone. I have a lot of people walk along with me.

Of coz, I may know some of them, nor not at all. But I still keep walking and walking. When I am tired, I will take a rest on the road, but Journey is still going on. Need to keep going and going...

On the other hand, the road was dark, alone and kind of scary. Not that I don't want to walk, but not too sure if I should pick this road or not... Good that I always have people walk along with me. However, I know this shouldn't be the road I am in. God will not let me walk alone, bcoz at least HE will walk with me.

Road must go on. Life must go on... I can rest, but I can't rest more than I need it. I start to plan what I want to do now... As usual, I want to finish my 30 years dream hope --> "clean up my room". I want to make more space in it. Too many junks and I want get away some. End up I took the Dog cage out. It is huge and takes me move it walk up and down twice. Where should I put it? Since Boy jai doesn't sleep in that area anymore, (He doesn't like it, bcoz I place his door across my closet, he never go into since then) I decide to put the cage where he used to sleep now. Heehehe! At least he goes back in now.

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I pick up the mails and I receive an "Aerogramme". It is Envelope and letter paper 2 in 1. I know it is from my Auntie 5.

Good to receive her letter, very closed, very warm, very touched. She shares what in her mind. I don't really walk to her that much in person. She is a busy lady. When we talks, we will not finish after3-4 hours.

Didn't write letter for long. Usually writing blog instead of letters. To her, I will make the exception.

Thank you, Auntie Siu Ngan. I know I will not be alone. You are with me at all time. I am sure you are one of the angels sent by my LORD. Great!

how many of you really read my blog?

There are no one leaving me message, I am not too sure who come on here to read my blog.

May be:

you don't want to let others people know you read my blog

you want to be the secret angel as always

you don't want to express about how much you share my thinkings

you are very lazy

you are just dropping by...

Doesn't matter which one you are, Thank you for coming here to read my blogs. I know not many people know about it bcoz I keep it very low profile. I hope you can share what you think as well.

Drop me a note when you like to, ok? or email me at percyc@gmail.com

Thank you!

靈修就好像清水

"靈修就好像清水，靈修越多，清水越多，可以洗去越多的污泥。這些污泥就是罪。

靈修越多，愛也越大，對罪人的接納也越大。

靈修越多，就越有耐性去忍耐別人，越愛別人。靈修越多，就更願意接觸從前不愛或不願接觸的人。"

We need to drink a lot of water bcoz to wash out the waste in our body; we should learn how to wash out the sins from inside us by learning more and more God's words.

Thank Esther Kwan for sending me this message. I am very appreciated.

Goodbooks

Of Coz, I won't go there, but if you have time... please go there.

Sat: My favarite book: by Maggie (Little horse) Autograph session
I wish I can be there. I really like this little cartoon character. Everythings just like my life. =)

Sun: Matt's "Matt brings laughters"
I am sure you don't want to miss. If you go there and meet Matt (Chow Hoi Kwong), make sure you tell him you read my Blog and you go there. Remember that you tell him Percy. He remembers. me...

Mom and sons (Photos only)

Let Go

"Let go", easy to say
"Let go", difficult to take the action.

By the time I found out Boy jai didn't have any longer to live. I decided that I should let go. I mean I miss him, I already missed him by thinking that, so how could I do it? Honestly, I don't know how to do so, but I pray to LORD everyday.

I pray to my LORD that I can hear Boy jai's breathing everyday.
I pray to my LORD that I see Boy jai everyday.

Then, I ask myself, "What will I do if Boy jai is not here anymore?"

I predict that I will cry, bcoz I miss a family member around me.
I predict that I will catch all the things related to him, bcoz those are the only memories Boy jai leave to me.
I predict that I will be quiet bcoz I think there are no one understand the pain I will have.
I predict that I will be OK bcoz I know Boy jai won't let me upset for too long. He will wait for at the Rainbow bridge.

At this moment, I guess I am ready for Boy jai's leaving...
Still with upset, pain, unforgettable moments... but right now... I will do my best to keep him happy and keep him feel the LOVE.

Remember, we have everything in our lives. We have friends, family, work, social lives.... but our animal friends only have us as WHOLE. They only have us. For us, they are part of us; For them, we are their world.

Don't get them by any chance SUFFER... we have to learn "let go". I don't regret bcoz I already give him the LOVE I can as possible. Yeah, Boy jai, Love is not too much from me, but good enough to get a lot of people jealous. heeheheee!!!

Be serious about what I am going to do...

It is always good to talk to someone I can look up to.

It is always happy to share the thoughts with someone I feel comfortable.

Being a newbie in the real society, I guess it is very common for me to have such rough time. I am not giving up. I don't want to give up. At least not at this moment. I have a very positive thinking about the future.

By training the strong mindset, I have to nail down what I need to do and go for it. Are you agreed with me?

if you are agreed with me, then be with me. Support me and pray for me.

if you are not agreed with me, then please walk with me, guide me.

First time to go on myself.... need to have clear mindset.

Actually, I used to have clear mind set... I mean... I used to know what I need/ what I was looking for... time flies, and not anymore...

At this moment

At this moment in my life...

Even I need to wape you butt....

Even you are going to get wild...


Even you may walk away from me...


I am trying my best to ... make you smile...





Bcoz you are everything to me at this moment....

Dettol

I have been asking myself why do I like Dettol that much. I don't recognize it until couple years ago. I have been searching for "DETTOL" in Canada. but that it is so hard to find DETTOL in Canada, but then I tried to look for the replacement. I just couldn't find the same one. They have the same solution inside the bottle, but just different SMELL!!!

Yeah, the smell! I like it because of the smell. I don't really care about how it works on us, but the smell only. Weird eh?

I love it, but why? I think bcoz of my mom. She used to work in the hospital and all my sweaters which skitted by my mom... They have DETTOL smell even now. After I moved Canada, I missed the smell. The SMELL!!!!!!!! Have you ever try to smell it? I am sure I am not the only one who likes the smell.

Don't you like Dettol. It is brown solution in the bottle, but when you put the concentrated full cap into the water, it turns WHITE, but if you have too much water, the goes clear....

I learn something from Dettol:
Doesn't matter what you see, no matter how much it is changed from the outside, by the surrounding, it always have one thing will not change. The origin smell. That is why the dogs identify the people right the way once they smell once.

Leave me a message and tell me we have the same interest. =)

Arrived @ Toronto

Aug 2
HK to Van
delayed 2 hours in Hong Kong; not good food; no plug in for the movies; Sat at side instead of window; met my relatives; very tired; had some quiet time to think...
doesn't matter... I liked the flight. it leaded me to my 1st HOME, British Columbia. I kept asking myself why I like canada so much. Oh, finally, I found myself peace and quiet in such environment.

Aug 3
Van to Toronto
delayed 1 hour; sat by the windows; had couple time to sleep
arrived Toronto @ 1:30am ... killed me.

Couldn't wait to see Boy jai. I arrived garage, Cookie barking and I opened the door, he went silent. Then I saw Boy jai. He looked at me and started coming to me. so happy. I was so happy.

Boy jai, I am home with you. no matter what... I will do the BEST to you. You only need to be with me... That is it!

Love you, Boy!.

Tears in Heaven (By Eric Clapton)

I was listening this song on the flight and it dragged me really deep down.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Will he recognize me?
Is God going to take care of him?
Will he be taken care of?
Will God have time to take care of him? He is a naughty boy