Stress... pressure...

*sigh*... .so many things on my plate... how should I handle?

Myanmar Cyclone emergency relief....
China Earthquake emergency relief...

China Earthquake fundraising...
Different malls; different companies; different restaurants; different media...

Newspapers... TVs... Radios...
Radiothon.... Telethon....

Before the emergenicies.... I have:
Chris Wong's Sharing Nite.... (June 5)
30 hours famine camp (June 7-8)
June Telethon (June 15)

... ... ...

I am the project owner, so many logistic needs to do....

Good that...
I don't need to worry about Summer camp, as I have those talented leaders help me
I don't need to care about the dogs days and nites as mom already taken care of them...
I don't need to worry about another 1/2, as I am still being single.

Talking about Single.... I have been thinking about relationship recently. Believe it or not. I am so lonely...and want to go back to my ex ... how embarass... my ex doesn't even want to see me... Am I that bad?

All of a sudden, another guy comes after me. I know he cares about me, but we are so much different... how can I be with him for the rest of my life?

I have been waiting and waiting for God's call... I know he won't let me lonely for the rest of my life... I need to be patient.... but... I start to have struggle... I have been thinking of some of my friends... are they potential? ... I guess I can't just use my own judgement in order to find the right person...

Friends were teasing me that I should have to re-judge my requirements of my bf:
Tall, thick eyebrows and roots of hair on his face... .ahahhaahaa!! Come on, friends you know these are just jokes. Even most of my ex have such requirements! hahahaa!

The only thing is a MUST requirement: he must has the same faith as mine. It is not about self-centre, not about forcing him to do something he maynot want to. If he has the same faith as me, he will be able to share and understand the things inside the deep of my heart.

Tomorrow, another brand new day, but I just need to tell myself that ... I have to focus back to my LORD instead of the little things in my life.

I just realized that there is Pressure being single at my age..... Do I really want ot be single?

new guy in my dream... what the heck...?

I had a weird dream last night. Not very clear, but the feeling is so strong.

In the dream, there was a guy who was very good friend of me. I didn't remember his face anymore, but I knew he was one of the persons I recently meet.

He took care of me. Planned things for me and stuffs like that... we went thru some group activities (group talking, and stuffs)

The reason I wrote it out... just want to tell you all. I don't like the guy who dumped me anymore. He doesn't treasure me. He doesn't even want to meet me anymore...

Oh well, this mystery guy in my dream... hope is the one I have been waiting for. Hope things turned out more clear and good.

yeah, I still like MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaahahaaha!!!

如果．愛

如果．愛
如果土地的裂縫不能彌合，求主讓人以愛貼護心靈的創傷。
如果被埋的孩子不能救活，求主讓活著的人堅強雄立。
如果歌唱的校園已成絕響，求主教人們唱起生命的新歌。
如果樸實的鄉土蒙塵成廢，求主讓新置的牆垣帶出希望的明天。
如果溫柔的山川已扭曲堆堰，求主以時間沖走死亡的恐懼。
如果無名的軍士已煙滅灰飛，求主用恩典撫慰不朽的英魂。
如果大地的餘憤仍然震動，求主守護每一個因愛赴義的人員。
如果那個母親懷中倖存的孩子安然成長，求主祝福陶造他的生命，
永遠記得母親的手機上的留言：「記住我愛你」。
如果災難的苦杯不能挪開，求主讓我從容地背起十架，在沉默中聆聽上主同行的步音。
如果在我們當中仍有恐懼與疑惑，求主撥開障惘，教導啟悟，過去風聞，如今經歷，十字架上不死的愛。


by Chris Tam

guys you shouldn't love

十 種 男 人 愛 不 得

雖 說 「 男 人 不 壞 ， 女 人 不 愛 」 ； 然 而 ， 網 上 公 佈 有 十 種 不 值 得 愛 的 男 人 ， 給 姊 妹 們 好 好 反 思 。
‧ 1. 打 人 的 男 人
‧ 2. 花 花 公 子
‧ 3. 拒 絕 與 你 溝 通
‧ 4. 不 站 在 你 這 邊
‧ 5. 總 是 要 你 遷 就 他
‧ 6. 有 糟 糕 的 癖 好
‧ 7. 拒 絕 長 大
‧ 8. 不 負 責 任
‧ 9. 說 謊
‧ 10. 雙 重 標 準

甚 麼 是 糟 糕 的 癖 好 ？ 愛 賭 、 吸 毒 、 喝 酒 、 潔 癖 、 不 洗 澡 等 等 。 所 謂 雙 重 標 準 ， 則 是 不 准 你 有 異 性 的 朋 友 ， 可 是 他 有 一 大 堆 ； 不 准 你 遲 到 ， 但 他 從 沒 試 過 準 時 。 結 果 女 網 友 紛 紛 求 救 ， 「 我 個 中 大 半 ， 點 算 ？ 」 多 位 姊 妹 恍 如 身 陷 情 感 博 彩 遊 戲 中 ， 計 算 自 己 的 男 人 中 了 幾 多 項 點 數 。 「 中 兩 點 … … 但 回 頭 太 難 」 更 何 況 是 「 我 中 7 點 ， 點 算 ？ 」 不 過 ， 亦 有 女 網 友 畀 男 友 滿 分 ， 「 我 個 男 友 冇 一 樣 中 ， 我 都 知 佢 真 係 一 個 好 好 好 男 朋 友 ！ 」

China SiChuan Earthquake

Dear God,

Please comfort those who lost the family members during the earthquake.
Please comfort those who are still looking for family members in the area.

My Lord, my heart is drowning. I am working on the Emergency by WVC towards this earthquake, my eyes are tearing. There are so many people lost their lives without any notice. Please Lord, please help them. Take them with you. Please comfort their family.

I don't know what I can do, but I know you sent me here to get closed to the situation and let me learn how to understand the human nature. Thank you for taking care of me. I felt so grateful that I am in Canada. I am so dam lucky, my Lord.

I am trying my best to support the relief. PLease give me strength and give me energy to do so. I don't have a lot of money, if I am in China, I know I will go there and support. Please Lord, help me to do so.... Even I am in Canada, please give me wisdom to do things for this.

My heard is sinking, my Lord, please lift me up

I am praying in the name of Jesus Christ.

~Amen

Where are you?

I want to tell you something:

I am looking for you.
I am waiting for you.

But, where are you? how come you are hiding? why do I have to wait again?

I miss you even though I don't know who you are

Please come to me...

Not a day...

I have been working, running around, end up... I am still alone...

I have not thinking about LOVE for a while. I don't know why? maybe I intentionally asked myself not to think about it, or I don't want to get hurt again.

I am ok, my friends. Don't worry.

Just sometimes thinking back and forth.. Nothing much...

Love? where to find it? When I am looking for love, I should learn how to love and how to be loved?

I guess.... this time... I am giving up on LOVE. Hope it comes to me, so I don't need to look for it.

學會獨處

作者：查思博牧師

(耶穌)就獨自又退到山上去了。約翰福音6：15

如果你無法獨處，你就無法鼓勵他人；也許你口若懸河，卻只是空泛之談，因為你空無半點經歷。只有先與神獨處、領受祂的話，你的勸勉才值得讓人銘記，保羅說：「我就沒有與屬血氣的人商量」(加拉太書1：16)。神委以他幾乎無法擔當的重任，他不得不到亞拉伯沙漠獨處三年。如果你希望與神建立關係、領受某種異象或是確認生命的方向，你必需與神獨處。只有聽到神的微聲，你才能藉此鼓勵他人。杰克斯的祖母曾以採棉花為生，從奴隸一般的苦役中掙扎過來，最終獲得學位，更在學院當講師。杰克斯說：「她學會獨處而不感到孤單，學會憑著理智自得其樂，並藉著與神相交得著信心和安穩。她也能看透眼前的困境，對未見之事歡欣鼓舞，對未來充滿信心及盼望。」你又如何？你是否也有些似乎無法實現的夢想或目標？你可選擇堅持或是埋沒它，若你選擇前者，你就要澆灌它──但只有與神獨處才會得著澆灌它的源頭。

注重「靈裡的」源頭，就不需屈從「外在的」枷鎖了。

Believe it or not.... I am learning how to be alone with GOD. It is not an easy lesson, but I would like to keep learning. I believe God listen to me, help me, heal me, protect me, and guide me to what I want to be.

Food poison

Tuesday Morning:
so Hungry, I was in hurry and grapped a piece of cheese and a bottle of "Ha Fu" grass drink on the way to work.
By the time I reached 407 (markham rd and 407), I already finished the "breakfast"... when I was driving crossing yonge. Something wrong with me. I felt so dizzy and wanted to throw up.
I kept telling myself NOT to throw up or dizzy. Focus on the road... by the time I reached Dufferin, the dizziness and "puking feeling".... just up to the top of the head.
It was my hardest drive to Mississauga, end up I felt so sick after I parked the car...
Need to settle a bit before I came out of the car.
To devotion, I was shivering and feeling so cold. Anita called 3rd Floor First Aider, Karen, took me to the First Aid room.
After I lied down there, either I fainted out or I just couldn't get up. so dizzy and couldn't puke...
around noon, Dannet and Karen came to see me and suggested me to go home. I called Ka Ho, he came to WVC in 30 mins.
Went home, so tired... so sick... all I did was sleeping... and puking up.

Wednesday:
Dad asked Mom to go to WVC with me. I packed my stuffs. couple emails to my manager, and brought all the stuffs with me left. I was not feeling very well, but better than Tuesday.
I went to Dr. Lo. She examed me and told me I might have "ear water inbalanced". I really didn't think so, but of coz I didn't argue with her. She gave me a week sick leave and reminded me to take Gravol

Thursday:
I wanted to go to work as I didn't want to leave Wade alone at work. I felt so bad to him. He must be very scared bcoz he needed to in charge the whole dept.
I called all the helps I could to help him. Hope he was doing ok.
I realized that my OHIP card would be expired in 22 days, so Mom took me to renew it, then I went to get some Korean Congee. I didn't feel like eating anything else, but Congee.
Still dizzy. Hope things turned better.

I sometimes asked myself why the heck I have such weak body? I used to have better health... where is it anymore???

I am low in Iron, sensitive throat and the most bad thing: emotional problem...

Friends, please don't tell anyone as whoever come to read it... you must be my good friends. I need your help, but not spreading the rumours.

Hope I will feel better. Still feeling dizzy.

Am I really Food Poison? or actually "ear water inbalanced"?? I have no idea.