A long time ago.... someone told me that I need to be careful 36 and 48 year Olds.
End up, I lost my daughter when I was 36 years old. It was the year of dragon.
So this year, 48 years old.... that would be something related to my legs....
Today I am very unhappy. My husband said I act like 爛仔. This is the way I live... my attitude is like 爛仔. Should ibe proud? Bcoz part of MK jai is like that too.
Being this attitude is how I protect myself. I guess. I just don't know how to face the world without a thing how to protect myself.
Don't know how to face the world.... maybe I should not face the world anymore.
I see some people die bcoz of illness. They fight until very last minutes.... but do they want to fight until last? Or they have no choice?
Some people end their lives... they must have lots of guts in order to do so....I have been asking myself.... do I have guts to do it???
I ask myself so many times.... do I have the choice to choose end of live? Do I have lots of guts???
原來自己已經有七個月內心無容居所了。
