Busy week

Another day...
Another day...

Nov 10: I was so busy to prepare for Wong Tze Wah, He was finally coming to Toronto. Couldn't wait. Not his BIG Fan, but loved to meet him. He was one of a kind Celebrity that you want to meet in person. no need to talk much, but let him know your existing.

Nov 11: Good to have someone take care of stuffs for me. Francis took care of Wong Tze Wah's trip, and I need to prepare the Press Conference. I didn't have time to receive call or stuffs. So many things to prepare. Good to have Vincent as part of my team. I don't need to be that stress.

Nov 12: SHOW DAY! I was so prepared, except banking. I didn't know how to do the transition. However, I only could do the best, but still...screwed up. Good to have group of good volunteers. They helped me a lot. I mean it. Everyone of them, they helped a lot.

I didn't know what to say, but BIG THANK YOU to them.

Nov 13: Needed to bring something to Suk Yin, so Kenneth and I went to Hotel before they took off. Helped Wong Tze Wah and his assistant moved the suitcases. Well... another Thank you form him. Nice and warm.

After all these days, it was time for me to take some rests. Kenneth asked me where I wanted to go. I wanted to have Shang Hai food and I wanted to shopping. It was not usual me, bcoz I was no fan of shopping. I found shopping actually a bother for me. However, that day, I wanted to SHOP with Kenneth. Even just window shopping. End up... Mr. Man bought more stuffs than I did. Hahaaa! Anyway, I loved the time and I enjoyed the moments.

The only brand I would crazy about was ROOTS. Couldn't tell you how much I loved it, but I just LOVE IT!

Too bad the Canada Classic jacket didn't fit me, or it would already in my house.

I was very tired, but I still enjoyed the shopping trip in V.Mills.

After the whole day shopping, I found out I total forgot the Scout Training. Sorry, leadres, I didn't mean NOT to be there. I didn't want to be the training at the first place. Just bcoz James asked me, I would be there, or I would not even think about it.

Nov 16: Check up for stomach and Colon. I knew that I shouldn't feel anything, but the time I was waiting, and when the nurse put the IV in, I felt the fear... Kenneth was there with me at all time. I was thinking that I shouldn't ask him to be with me. I was wasting his time. He was so busy. However, waiting to go in took an hour, waiting me to get up took another 30 mins. The procedure only took 20 mins. Good that I was normal. Glad... but that was the day... At night, Kenneth had my favorite dish: steamed fish. When did it become my favorite dish? I don't know.

I used to fear to eat fish, bcoz I choke every single time... but now... I am getting better and better, of coz, I still need Kenneth to help me to find the right part of fish to eat.

Nov 17: Dizziness and didn't want to get up. I didn't want to stay home, so it took 30 mins to drive my dogs to the dog field (usually only 15 - 20 mins). It was a nice outdoor, breath some fresh air and looked at the dogs running, I felt better

Nov 18: Dizziness didn't go away, and still had some stomaches. Didn't tell anyone, bcoz not necessary. I tried to clean up my life. Completed the Condo, that is not belonging to me anymore. I shouldn't think of anything related to this anymore. I shouldn't have any hope on the case as the lawyer said atiere is no reply at all. No expectation, no hope, no unhappy feeling.

Today, I have been thinking when is the best time to quit. I mean I really don't like to work in Mississauga. I can't drive that far. I am not a good driver... I really don't want to get into any car accidents anymore (3 accidents in the past 20 months). If I don't work with World Vision Canada, where should I work? how should I choose? what should I do?

That is the question I have been asking God. Be patience. I am waiting for the answer quietly, and simply.

Waiting... Waiting... stil waiting...

Yeah, Panic Attack!

Stress is with me today.

Just by looking at her emails, it already killed me. I was shorten of breaths and panic.

I am asking myself. I should out of marketing ASAP. it is not my industry. Then which industry should I join?

Environmental Science? going back to the basic?
I am really not too sure. This morning the nervous attacked me badly. Now I do have a BIG DOUBT if I should stay in Marketing or not. Maybe I should just work in Walmart or stuffs. Hey! no way, She said I am lacking people skill.

I am trying to hold on my anger. Good that Vincent promised me that he would stay here with me physically while she is around. This is how scared I am.

I don't know why, but very scared of her. Get nightmares almost everynight.

Good luck to me, pal. My Goal is aiming to resign the beginning of next year.