Dearest guy guy gor gor,
After I heard the news, I have been shocked inside me. I really do have the mixed feeling.
I still remembered that mom told me how much you cared me when we were little. You were holding my hands and playing together at your house. I didn't have a lot of memories about you, but Mom told me you just loved me so much. Cared about me a lot, that was why mom and dad loved you very much as well...
After 20s something years, I had a chance to find out where you were, but things changed. we both grew up. Your Mom came to visit Canada and accidentally bumped to my mom. They were reunion and your mom told me you were in HK and enjoying your life. I was happy for you. I couldn't remember how you looked like, but just remembered the Blurry image of you. During that time, both mothers talked about your health issues. Due to your religion, you won't be able to do any blood transferration. My mom started to worry about you, so did I. The only thing I could do was emailed you, supported you from another side of the world.
Things turned miracle, you got your surgery without any blood transfer, at the same time, you were healing. I was so happy for you. Then I went back HK to work and finally I had a chance to meet you after 20s years. You were changed, and I was changed. We both had a very different grow up background. I still remembered that we went to have "snake" you told me that your mom forced you to have NO MEAT! You were tortured. I could told how much you love MEAT! I missed you so much, and I talked to you a bit and you promised me that you would buy me a better meal next time.
Then I went back Canada. HK was not a place for me. Before I left, I sms you and you asked me to take care.
I seldom met you on MSN. You were busy travelling and having fun. I guessed you knew you had your limited time. I didn't stop you, but just asked you to be very careful, especially you went to Japan by yourself. You promised me that you would took me there when I went back HK.
2007 Summer, you emailed me and said you wanted to talk to me. Sorry, guy guy, I was not in a mood. I gave you some BS excuse and ignored you. Then I talked to you couple time on MSN, but you were either busy going out or didn't want to talk (weak body).
Until... this morning... Mom told me you passed away this summer. I was shocked. I had mixed feeling. I didn't cry, bcoz I didn't know how to.
guy guy, I guessed I would meet you in the heaven. You have to take care of yourself. I am sure you have so much fun up there. You didn't feel pain, you could do whatever you want!
I really do miss you, Anthony, guy guy gor gor. miss you just so much... can't express it out...
Rest in Peace, ok?
Love,
Percy
Tiring makes me thinking stupid. Whenever I think stupid, I think of my family. One of the most important person is my Dad. This is not a clear picture, but good enough to see how handsome my Dad is and how happy I am. When I look at this picture, I am so happy. Nice HK night and happy father and daughter. Dad, I miss you.
After my boss fired my colleauge, I had been very frustrated. There were so many things to do and I just didn't know how to start and how to stop!!!! I was so tired this morning. I arrived work at 8am and non-stop working till 6:30pm. My brain couldn't function anymore, and I told myself I had to escape that place. Not that I disliked my work, just too many things to do. I just couldn't stand it anymore...
If there is a chance, I really want to head back to nature. I want to FLY!!! I want to leave the town!!!! 
The sky becomes so grey and I am still looking for the "First Light"... Sometimes just doesn't imply these into our reality. Watch it. be careful. 