It was so late. It was almost 1:00am. He called and met me at Mong Kok. I was being happy, not only there was someone could talk to me, but I actually cleaned 1/2 of the kitchen. I was happy (Is that simple? just a cleaned kitchen!? yeah, when you looked deeper. It was a difficult job!).
Anyway, I went to Mong Kok on foot. Tired, but exercise was good. I really wanted to go there faster, but legs were sore, and didn't really want to take Taxi. I know he was waiting for a bit long time... I hoped that he didn't mind...
I saw him, yeah, he wore nice clothes (I think bcoz of interview) and stood at the corner waiting for me. He saw me and said, "there is no Chau tofu lar". Yeah, It was 1:20am, we kept walking and walking. He started to "explose". He asked /questioned me all those questions I had been answered so many times in these 2 days. However, I only heard 50% of what he asked. At the same time, I had been asking myself why did he call me out while he was not in a good mood, why didn't he just call off the meeting, so I didn't need to be the "sand bag"? I was getting upset, but I told myself NOT to cry in front of him. He kept asking me all those questions... again, those questions had been asked in the past days from different people, even from myself...
We end up stopped at a dessert shop between Mong Kok and Prince Edward. I didn't know the way he asked me, looked/ sounded like questioning. I didn't like being a suspect. I was speechless. I finally told him that I wanted someone to come out with me and talk, (that means I tried to focus on something else instead of job searchings 24-7) Then he told me that he met our friends during dinner time. Alot of negative things happened, seperation, being picked on by mom-in-law, etc. He also reminded me not to trust any guy. NOT TO RELY ON ANY OF THEM.
He didn't walk home with me tonight. I should be happy about that, so he wouldn't see my tears? I was very confused. I didn't know why I came out that late? Just letting him shouted at him, gave me lesson? or just see a friend? WHAT THE...????? He passed the feedback of tonight's saddness, negativities from his friends to me. I was lost. I had no idea why all of a sudden he gave me that lesson... I just wanted a friend to disturb my focus, so I didn't need to stand at the corner of my confusion.
Did he think the way he QUESTIONED me would gave me answer? Whatever he asked, already had answered in my mind a long time ago. I should become more stronger, not to rely on him. NOT TO FIND HIM.... NOT TO SHARE with him....
But is it me? is it Perz?
Confused...
Percy
