I am what I am....

Another brand new day, and it is another sick day for me. I mean... I really want to work like normal person, but dizziness bothers me a lot.

I don't claim myself as SICK/ ILL... but just not feeling well. I don't like using SICK as I am not sick. I was working on a lot of stuffs. When I was not being able to get into Lotus notes, I was trying to clean up my room in order to work in a comfort place. It was so nice to have Kenneth helped me out to do all cleaning. He actually shorten my "HOPE" dream from 10 years to 5 years ...

There were things happened since I wrote the previous blog. I went to TAC to serve what God planned for me. I was working in the male clothing room. Preparing with Kenneth, end up 20+ people came in ... and most of them asked for jeans and underwears. I shouldn't work in the male room as it was not safe for me (according what I knew), but it was OK, I trust God protected me and some of those people might remembered me from last time (A long time ago).

People who didn't come to TAC to meet the homeless in person, they might not understand the situation and they would not understand why homeless being homeless. Even I was there, I didn't know the truth, but I believed each of them had their own stories. I was so chicken to ask for the reasons.

Some of them actually stayed in the room and chatted with me. It was called "start" for me. Start to recognize their faces, and their stories from pieces to pieces.

Homeless is a big problem in Toronto (across Canada) and people need to face the issue. I praised to LORD that there were actually some of the homeless people told me they had the chance to interview for jobs. I was so happy for them. There was a lady, who told me that she needed a skirt to go for the interview even it was cold. She wanted to look nicer in order to have better life. What a GUT! good luck! proud of you (didn't even have a chance to ask for your name and you were gone) stepping a BIG step in your life!

As for myself, I wish I can go for camping again. I need a real REST as work is so busy and busy enough to choke me. I really wish that I don't need to work for money, but work for my dream.

Anyway, waiting for this BIG season coming as I will go back to HK with my honey! yeah!!!! don't know what will happen, but I believe GOD is leading us, holding our hands.

Time to speak up: Happy Valentine's Day!

Let's Build the foundation well. Start from good communication.

I am going to celebrating my happy time with everyone!
I am going to try my best to throw all negative thoughts away!
I am going to let you understand more about me!
I am going to throw all the struggles as far as possible, bcoz I know you are with me, no matter what..
I am going to tell the WORLD who you are!!!





I am not afraid to tell the WORLD that I LOVE YOU!

Kenneth: Me?

Percy: Yes, It's you! Too bad.... this picture is my property... no matter you didn't sign your Photo consent or not. (*If you think it's not time yet.. let me know.. I will put another picture on here. =P But don't you complain afterward.)

Happy Valentine's day to Special you and EVERYONE!!!!

分分鐘需要你

願我會楂火箭 帶你到天空去

在太空中兩人住

活到一千歲 都一般心醉

有你在身邊多樂趣

共你相相對 好得戚好得意

地淋天崩當閒事

就算翻風雨 只需睇到你
似見陽光千萬里

有了你開心Ｄ 乜都稱心滿意

鹹魚白菜也好好味

要與你永共聚 分分鐘需要你

你似是陽光空氣

扮靚Ｄ皆因你 癲癲地皆因你

為你擔心作傻事

扮下猩猩叫 睇到乜都笑

有你在身邊多樂趣

若有朝失左你 花開都不美

願到荒島去長住

做個假的你 天天都相對

對木頭公仔做戲

I love this song so much, bcoz I really hope I can find someone who makes me do all the lyric says. I believe I don't need to find that special someone anymore, bcoz I have you.

只為下一秒而活

I am not being negative, but I keep telling myself that I have to live alive!

believe me or not. I am happy, bcoz I feel like I am one of the luckiest person in Ontario. I am not saying the world since I am only small potato.

I have been drainng my energy out at work, on road. I am very tired. really tired... Don't know why but just very tired... tired till headache, still draining out the energy.

I sometimes do scare bcoz I don't know what it will go to end. Of coz I am not walking to that end. I tell myself even I drop dead at this moment. I am still happy of what I have.

I sometimes do think too long term. I know this is only DREAM. I like to dream. If a person doesn't dream, she/he has no hope! I have my dream. I have my hope. I see the bright light. I know where I want to go.

My friends, don't waste your time on guessing and denying. "Be a Man, Do the right thing!"

Life is short to have so much fun. Don't waste the energy and time! Go out and have fun! see you out there.

Thank YOU for protecting me; Thank you for taking care of me...

The following may confuse you a bit, YOU should be understand what I mean. you may have little problem. Don't worry, you will understand it eventually. =)

I am not afraid, bcoz I know YOU and you will walk with me.
I am not afraid, bcoz I know YOU and you will take care of me.

But I don't want to give you too much burden as YOU will protect me in any situation.
I only think if things turn out not good, then I will need to leave you. YOU will take care of me. Please not to worry about me. I don't want you to change your living style bcoz of my health. I don't want to bother you too much as this shouldn't be your problem. you already have many things to take care of.

I don't like doing all those tests, I feel like guinea pig. I have no choice.

Let me tell YOU and you something. I feel dizzy EVERYDAY. However, it take more energy to drive to Mississauga as I need to keep telling myself "I need to drive safely". Once I arrive home. I really want to just jump into YOU and rest. Good that YOU send you to me almost everyday.

you have your own life as well, I can't be selfish and make you to be with me time after work. I am sure YOU are letting me to learn how to be stronger and how to belove. Thank you.

When I look further, seems like nice weather, but rain coming up. Rain is not a bad thing at all. Without rain, our nature will suffer from dehydrating. Good that little sets of rains are coming. I am not afraid. I am not in fear! Little rain can moisturize me time to time.

Thank you and thank YOU!

Flame in my heart!

After the brutal weekend (emotionally), I picked up my feeling to my job and got back to work on Monday. Working a bit weird bcoz I didn't really feel like to communicate with Alice. I meant I was not mad at her, but just didn't know how to deal with her.

I even had tried to find another job over the weekend, of coz just browsing, as I promised Leader I would walk with her for this coming event, no matter what... It was too hard...

Closed to dinner time, Alice called and asked me to give her updates. At the end, I told her what she talked to me last Friday was very making me uncomfortable. That really bothered me. She forgot what she said!!!!

Anyway, Thank God that I was brave enough to speak up for myself. I tried NOT to being subjective, but being so calm and nice to her. Thank God for giving me patience and wisdom on that.

Pressure keep adding on, Fire in my heart keep moving up.....

Go Go Go, Percy!!!

"Sai" ed, don't miss me.

Dear God,

I have tried to serve you thru my work. Please help me. I really found that I do have a lot of People problem. I am really not good at that. I don't like to IMPRESS people, bcoz I found people are scary. My heavenly father, please take care of my heart. I don't want to be hurt. Alice said a lot of mean things as I couldn't imagine my boss would say that.

Please soften my heart as I am upset and angry of what she said to me... My Lord, I have to behave, I have to control myself in all direction, bcoz I am your daughter. You saved my life and I really want to tell the WORLD how much you love me and how much I want to be a good christian. Please help me.

I do make mistakes in my life. please forgive me as I didn't mean to keep making mistakes repeatly. Sorry. Please take away the temptations from me.

Please take care of my health. Kind of worry, not worried about my health, but Life is short to be with people I love, I care.

God, Thanks for all your love to me and to the people around me. Thank you.

God, Thanks for letting KM knows more about you. You are the BEST!

I am praying in the name of Jesus Christ. ~Amen.