暫時共你沒緣份

煉金術
作曲 / 編曲 / 監製 ： 伍樂城 @ RNLS
作詞 ： 黃偉文

給我一團熊火 試煉我 證明我這麼狠狠愛過
期望不多 只要得到過 你身旁 那寶座
給我一場洪水 冷靜我 眼淚太多已匯聚成河
力竭聲嘶請你喜歡我 什麼事都做過 都不能感動你麼
*原來暫時共你沒緣份 來年先會變得更合襯
頑石哪天變黃金 我可以等 融合二人是哪樣成份
但願虔誠能顯得吸引 用五十年溶化你 成就 金禧一吻*

不夠激情仍可靠耐性 對付你的冷酷及無情
沉默假使都算種本領 我一定 最安靜
深信忠誠遲會獲勝 那份固執終於都會被尊敬
如煉金般等你先轉性 除非遺失人性
怎可能一直結冰 Repeat *

頭白了 還在等 情人預約在黃昏
原來暫時共你沒緣份 來年先會變得更合襯
期待再苦再難堪 我都會忍
談情十年未晚不怕等
渡日如年仍覺得興奮
若最後能溶化你 何用 心急手震

It really hurts

This is how I feel tonight. Very hard to pass the night. When I am guiding the guy I like to chase another girl...

我真的受傷了 張學友
作詞：王菀之　作曲：王菀之

窗外陰天了　音樂低聲了　
我的心開始想你了
燈光也暗了　音樂低聲了　
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外陰天了　人是無聊了　
我的心開始想你了
電話響起了　你要說話了　
還以為你心裡對我又想念了
怎麼你聲音變得冷淡了　
是你變了　是你變了
燈光熄滅了　音樂靜止了　
滴下的眼淚已停不住了
天下起雨了　人是不快樂　
我的心真的受傷了

I feel good

I finally felt how important I was to some people. I went to work and told my boss and my colleauges that I wouldn't be able to help them out for tonight's event. What else could I do? They didn't say anything, but I myself felt that they really needed me there. Even it was not my project, I didn't mind to help them out. I felt guilty by not helping them out. So I told them I would went down there for site checking. They showed me the smile and were very impressed. I knew it was bad, but didn't know that was so bad.

I went down there, started to pick up what I needed to know and what I had to do. I talked to production team, and managed the operation team. I knew my senior was trying his best to do his job. It was just not his job, do you know what I mean?

I tried to tell them what they had to concern, looked at the watch and realized I was late for Scout (again). I ran out of "Hummingbird Center" and got in subway right the way. I was very tired because there was no time for me to rest. Things were not getting better, traffic jam. Oh well, not the bad one. I went to Richmond Green. I saw so many people there. They were so happy and having fun to eat. I was happy. I was flowing around and chit chatted with the parents, and kids. I loved them very much.

Finally, I could went back to fellowship. Not the bad idea, but I think should be good to have the sense of feeling again. Good to see those familiar faces and once again, I could got closed to GOD again.... How wonderful it was.

Things would get better. I will be patience and see. In the meantimes, I will try my best to look for jobs. I need the new one. I am very tired and hope everyone would understand what happened to me was very challenge in my life.

I really wanted to get away. HOpe everything should be OK.... I miss the days I was free.

Perz

This is the way I am protecting myself...

Some of my friends told me that I am not attractive at all, because I don't act like a girl. Does that mean all the tom boys have to become lesbians, or being lonely till they die?

When people know me, some commons are the following:
"Percy? She is very strong!!"
"Percy? She acts like very man!! She voices out really like the leader!"
"Percy? She is not girlish at all! So loud! so mean! no sensitive enough to be a girlfriend..."

I keep asking myself why I have such an image in my friend's hearts? Ahhh!! I know, this is the way I protect myself from being hurt. I don't want anyone to hurt my feeling face to face, in person nor directly. This is very personal issue and I will take it more serious and personal. Am I really that strong? Strong enough to let people think I can handle any bad situation? Honestly, I am not strong! I am not brave. I act like this bcoz I have to, I need to, and I must be this way! Isn't it funny? a chicken-shit person acts like strong. How nasty about it.

I am not girlish enough, I am not! and I can't act like one. It can't pass my standard. Isn't it rediculous? I am sure my friends will freak out if they see the girlish Percy. Plus it is not weird at all. I guess it is very important to keep my attitude. I am not that out-going, I don't like to talk. (Can you believe it, but it actually am)

Being a guy, talks like guys, etc etc...these are the way I am protecting myself. From being human emotion rather than, no signed just package loh.

I am very sleep now. Good luck!
Percy Chan

I see people really

Percy

Am I too sensitive?

Dear you,

Things are getting better... I am still asking myself how I should treat you. As a friend? or as a person I like at this moment? I guess the most you treat me nice... the more sensitve I am to you.

you are not that far away.... but I just don't know why I can't talk to you. You convince me that I like my good friend... why is that? Good friend is good friend... It is different between friendship and Love relationship.

If you don't like me, please keep a distance from me. I don't like picking up the wrong signal. I don't like walking into the deadend. Not that I can't wait for the relationship I want, but I will rethink if I really getting this relationship as my true relationship? I still have a lot of doubt.

If you think I am too sensitive, please not to do something to get me too sensitive...

Percy

The weaker I am, the stronger I am!

Dear you,

Guess what?I have been working like crazy. Not that I want to get promote, but I really want to learn whatever I can. Things are not that bad, the more my co-ordinator doesn't work hard, the more things I learn from what I have right now.

I miss you very much. I tried to talk to you, but I really can't think of anything to talk to you. I felt cheap if I go look for you everyday. I tried not to do that... but you know what? I just can't pass my standard....

I really want to tell you that I need to that I miss you....

Percy (SLEEPY)