Thank God.

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me the chance to work with all these people.
Thank you for letting me know what my weakness and strength.
Thank you for having me in such situation.

All the volunteers were GREAT!
All the artists were OK!
All the progresses were smooth! Thank you very much.

Praying in the name of Jesus Christ, ~Amen.

Chasing Love Musical Drama May 16 2009

It is OVER!

I had been working so hard for this event. End up it went OK in my standard.

Artists were arrived on May 15 2009 and Thank you for all my friends. I actually pulled 90% of my friends to the event becoming the volunteers

Drivers were great! Prepared well for the schedule of the artists. No matter what happened, they overcome the problems. Thank you.

My Assistants were great! Ran up and down for me and the SHOW! Solve the problems when I already had a lot to worry.

All team leaders and volunters were SUPER! Already told them what to do and they were just doing their job WELL DONE!

I praised to LORD that there were some mistakes so I still learned from it. I praised to LORD that the show went just so well. Of cause, there were some complains and negative feedbacks, That was just NORMAL! Thank you very much.

I praised to LORD that I did my part, I already TRIED my best and the rest were depending on HIM, not me.

mixed mind

I have been listening a lot of music.

Lyrics touch my heart.

How can those writers and composters write those amazing lyrics?

I have been running around, dealing with different parties bcoz of the event. I am very tired physically and mentally. I have been this in the past months. Sorry for the people closed to me. They needed to put up with me. Sorry about that.

Whenever I feel depressed, you are here with me, trying to cheer me up and making sure I am eating and doing well.
On the other hand, I don't do much for you, but torturing you mentally. Sorry about that. I am trying NOT to do so, but I am being attacked by Depression. I am trying avoid it. Sorry, Mission failure.

I am looking for my future. I believe God provide me bright and shinny day everyday. I have been waiting for this for so long... why it seems like it is getting harder and longer to get it?

I have so many songs in my mind right now. I can't do it. I can't relax bcoz the event is within 4 days. It seems like so many things UNPREPARED!!!!!!

Tomorrow, I will do one thing very important in my LIFE. No one knows about it... Alive or Dead, you will see.

Love you all,
Percy

Sometimes When We Touch (By Dan Hill)

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

天都亮了﹐真的嗎﹖

忘了有多久 再沒聽到你 對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久 我開始慌了 是不是我又做錯了甚麼

# 你哭著對我說 童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂 從你說愛我以後 我的天空星星都亮了

我願變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使 張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡 幸福和快樂是結局

#我要變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使 張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡 幸福和快樂是結局

我會變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使 張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡 幸福和快樂是結局

一起寫我們的結局

Very good post from Beach

天下有兩難：
登天難，求人更難
地上有兩苦：
黃蓮苦，貧窮更苦
世間有兩險：
江湖險，人心更險
人間有兩薄：
春冰薄，人情更薄

知其難、忍其苦、測其險、耐其薄，可處事矣

天下有兩易：
得到易，失去更易
地上有兩甜：
愛情甜，親情更甜
世間有兩忙：
工作忙，扮工作更忙
人間有兩悶：
活著悶，不懂得去活更悶

慎其易、受其甜、享其忙、捱其悶，可過活矣

Thank you Matt for blogging this out. I didn't mean to copy it, but I really like this very much. It really meant what I am having in my life right now.

Thank you, Chow Hoi Kwong.

Can't breath...

When I came to office this morning, I found a note on my table:

"Percy, I MUST see you on a few things tomorrow at 4pm, I won't be in until 2:30pm tomorrow, thanks."

I didn't know what I needed to know, but I felt something happened, then I saw the Voicemail light is on. I picked up the message. It was from Alice this morning at 7am. She didn't want to call me this morning, but she was panic attack.

Why do we do this in Panic mode? I really don't like the atmosphere. If I am getting tighten up, I am sure no one will have a good day. However, I choose to calm myself down and tell myself that EVERYTHING is handled by GOD.

God is willing to do so, but am I letting HIM to take care of me? Just like I know how much HE loves me by sending so many friends around to help me out, then I am still in panic???

I want to relax and end up I find myself out of breathe.

Kenneth has a lot to do/ worry at work, but he can still comforting me and willing to go to swim with me. I dropped it for awhile, I really want to do some exercises. Even a short walk with Dogs should be fine. I still can't find the time?

I am sure God will not let us do something in panic mode. It is another BIG lesson. how to LET GO. Human beings always think that they can control everything, but HOW? No matter how much money you get, you won't be able to take those materials to Heaven with you. Then in my case, I would like to do my BEST to help others (indirectly), but why do I make myself so weak in order to make it success? I mean, I want to achive what I need to, but I have been asking myself repeatly why do I have such weak body (physically and mentally).

Can't breath again... just can't breath... Relax Percy! Relax! You can do it...

Things should be prepared already, you will need to execute it. This is what you are good at! Take it easy! Make your volunteers happy and make yourself available to GOD.

Tell you all a secret: in the past months, the only thing that made me happy the most... is Kenneth become Christian and want to know more about God. This is something good for me as well. I am not a good Christian, and I will need to prepare myself in order to grow in Christ with him. Thanks, Jesus. I praise to you, my heavenly father.

Too many clouds cover the LIGHT of GOD, I am scared, but I know I SHOULDN'T. It is just because I know God provide WIND to blow the clouds away and I will see the clear sky again! Without HIM, I will have no HOPE by getting the CLOUDS away. HE is my saviour!!!!!! Let me breath, my heavenly father...

Pressure

It sometimes not coming from Work.
It sometimes not dealing with people.
It actually comes from myself. When my actions are not reaching my standard. It actually cause a certain level of stress.

I keep asking myself, just go back to orginal: take the pill and things will get better.

I was cooking for my family. I was alone in the kitchen. I was not talking to anyone, just by myself to stand there and to cook. My tears came out without any onion. Tomorrow has to work, but work should not a "Bother" as I know I will get off work early tomorrow.

My honey has some issues at work and should be able to take care of it himself, but I feel bad that he has to take care of me as well. My Burden shouldnot be his burden. It should be my problem, but not his. Sorry, Kenneth. Don't want to give you any extra things.

Pressure + tight timing = Going crazy.

may 16 event.

These days are crazy for me.

I have been working 7 days per week in the past few months. I don't know how many days I can stand any longer....

The Show is on May 16, but there are a lot of different things happening:

I need to cooperate with Suk Yin in order to make backstage/ production team works

I need to cooperate with Sponsors on accessories, food, etc etc workable

I need to make sure all volunteers know what they need to do before/ during / after the show

I need to balance my life style in order NOT going crazy.

Kenneth, I am sorry to give you my burdens. I don't know who else I should talk to and cry on to. Thank you for supporting me no matter I am being a bitch or not.

Wenkie, Pedro, Tracy, Carman, etc etc: Thank you for helping me out by taking such important roles in the event.

Ka Ho, thank you for taking care of my dogs as I have to run around to get ready the show.

Mom, thank you for coming back all the way from Hong Kong just to supporting me in such harsh period of time.

Thank you GOD for giving me the chance to do it. It is just too big for me. I don't know if I can still handle it in this coming weeks... without your help. I am nothing.

There are just too many things to handle while my health is not the top "healthy" ....