忘記背後, 努力面前

I was talking to my "dai lo" yesterday and finally I have some feedback about my blog.

Start from Today, I will put more elements in it. I will try not to express my SAD side only, but both side. Please bare with me.

In the past 5 days, I was not happy. Due to the disappointment at work, the isolation myself and the illness of my health. I put myself into the box and trying to lock it.

Thank you for talking me out, Chris. I am trying to get myself into one piece again and make sure things are getting better.

I promised myself and to LORD that I will walk close to him. I am working on it. Friends, remind me if you see me walking off track! Thank you.

I am sure I can change myself in the year of 2008. What do you think?



[忘記背後, 努力面前的, 向著標杆直跑.] (腓立比書 3:13-14)

Yeah! Baby!!!! Go Go Go!

Thank you... BUT

Thank you for reading my blog
Thank you for caring my feeling
Thank you for sharing your experiences
Thank you for sending me the "simple" sms
Thank you for remembering me
Thank you for taking care of yourself

But,
I am so disappointed by myself
I am so careless about myself
I am so forgettable
I am so not easy to satisfy
I am so demanding
I am so no worry about my friends

Bad Habbits

Today is another brand new day, but I don't have a good start.

I got up from the nightmare. I forgot what I dreamed, but it really bothered me as I didn't remembered what made me sweated so much.

I am in fear bcoz the problems keep coming back again and again. I am trying to find a way out to solve it or improve my disability, but end up it goes back to the original point. I love what I do, but I claim myself not very perfect to fit it. I always forget things. Things are important, prioritized, and cannot be forgotten. I know I have a bad memory, so I write down things I need to know, and need to remember. At the end, I don't remember where I wrote it down...

I am in fear bcoz it seems like I am stuck in the same point again and again. People ask me to focus. I do my best to focus, but can't do so... I don't know why? People ask me to stay as close as with GOD, I do. But not that I can focus on it neither.

Am I that bad person to live in this society? I don't know how to change these "so called" bad habbits: can't focus, always forget things, not details enough...

I know GOD can help me... I am seeking for HELP! It stresses me out pretty much. I am still on my pills, should I increase it? or stay on the same dosage?

God, Please help me as I start to cry automatically again...

Don't tell me the truth

真心話其實唔係人人都頂得住。

有時侯寧願唔知真相可能開心D。

I would prefer NOT to think about the TRUTH, and stick with dream I have. Not that I want to lie to myself, but actually I want to make sure I am very happy.

But, you know what... I am not happy today.

Guy friends

Feeling is something everyone wants to share with each others, but it is actually very private. I mean... I want to share my feling with you, but doesn't mean you are willing to or/and you know how to.

Feeling can be changed by the experiences, the incidents, the thinkings, etc. Feeling is very difficult to be understood. When I want to show someone how I feel, either that guy doesn't like me or that guy treats me as his good friend...

Why the heck they all treat me like this...???

Happy Chinese New year!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!!!!
恭喜發財!!!!

I went to chinese new year market today afternoon. It was so much to buy. Feel so happy.

How to handle cold war...

How to handle bad temper?

How should I get thru the bad situation with people are in Cold War?

I am very bad to handle such situation. Pretty bad... pretty pretty bad....

Please pray for me... I am afraid to be with someone... I am afraid of marriage... I am afraid to love and to be loved.

What really worth in your life?

I believe this should be a good one. If you should time, please go to watch it. I wish I am in HK and I will be able to watch it.


http://www.hkrep.com/tc_chi/season/2007-season8-1.html

I want to meet you, but no time before I fly

Finally, I have a chance to go to "nin siu"

After the past week and 1/2 busy.... finally I can do something I want to.

To all who didn't have a chance to meet me, I am very sorry. I will see you all next time when I come back to HK.

Please stay tune when I will come back next time. Hope soon....

miss you again...

tomorrow: another busiest day to meet friends......

today: i woke up early....
think of you...
i miss you....
don't know how NOT to miss you....

last nite:
benny's wedding... so touching...so warm....
thank you 4 inviting me to attend you happiness moment...